Friday, January 22, 2010
Time and Attention
Today was beautiful. We played outside with some neighborhood friends. We live on such a great street. There are some wonderful families and it is always so much fun. We rode bicycles and tricycles, wrote with chalk on the sidewalk, played hide-and-go-seek and just hung out with our friends. When it was finally time to go in, we gathered, bikes, chalk, blankets and left-over snacks and went inside to prepare for dinner. I placed Grace on the front steps as I was getting everything inside. She sat there quietly waiting to be walked inside but I noticed after a few minutes how she was trying to inch herself over so she could pull the leaves on the hedges that poked through the railing on the steps. I watched as she leaned as far as she could, catching herself if she started to fall. Mack and Sophie helped gather our items and talked about dinner as we made plans. I wondered if she felt left out. Did she feel sad that we were all running about and she was left alone on the steps? Did she mind this or was her only focus on how many leaves she could grab. Should I do things differently? Should I have helped her picked up the toys/cups/bicycle helmets and then help her walk inside and place them in there respective places? Should I slow down and payed more attention? There seems to never be enough time or attention....
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I think that sometimes we worry more than our kids worry. You're doing a great job.
You are a great mom. I also think that if your heart is aligned with the calling of the kind of mom the Lord has asked you to be, with the time that you have, then he will do the rest. While giving your all, trust everyday that He is working where you feel that you can't.
Hello! I haven't posted in a while but I just wanted to say--I think you're doing a wonderful job with Grace!!
As a kid with CP, I have to say, yeah, I do feel left out sometimes--I'm not sure if Grace feels the same way, but she might. =/ I remember a couple years ago, I went on a walk with my mom, my dogs, and one of my brothers, and they all went ahead, leaving me behind. I was trying to run and catch up with them, and I couldn't--it was so frustrating, I just wanted to walk beside them. There are other times when I feel helpless, too...A few weeks ago, my brothers and parents were shoveling snow in the yard, and I wanted to help so badly, but all I could do was watch. One of my brothers said, "Oh, you're so lucky you don't have to do this", but I felt like saying, "I wish I could...I want to help!" I kept my feelings to myself and just smiled, but it's hard sometimes.
But despite those challenges and frustrations sometimes, most of the time I feel like a pretty "normal" kid. :) I'm aware of my limitations but I try not to let them stop me or anyone else. I can't speak for Grace but hopefully I was able to give you some insight on how she may feel. This helps me too, actually--I'm sorry if it was a bit of a ramble. I just needed to share my feelings somewhere.
next time try to bring something she can do that is fun outside like a baby doll or music or books
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