I have had a very strong desire to try to start blogging again. My apprehension was lying in the part of me that just wanted to complain, vent, lament. I don't want my blog to be just about that...although at times it is quite cathartic.
I have had several email messages lately from people who have found my blog and my old (very old) entries regarding PERCS, SDR, therapies, and just lamenting. Some want specifics on procedures and outcomes, and others just have had a CP diagnosis for their child and just need to reach out to someone that understands. Because you see, while there are so many that don't understand, there are some of us that do. Sometimes it just takes a little vulnerability and nothing has made me more vulnerable than the past 7 years.
So, as I attempt to come back to blogging, I want to focus on gratitude. My focus this morning was changed from lamentations to thankfulness. Thank you God for putting the sermon Ross spoke out before me when I really needed it..."a focus on thanksgiving pushes out complaining...brings us a steadfastness of hope...a perseverance no matter what". My perseverance was faltering at best. I had lost hope and focus and needed a re-start.
So today I am thankful, and I have so much to be thankful for.
Shout joyfully to the LORD, all the earth. Serve the LORD with gladness; Come before Him with joyful singing. Know that the LORD Himself is God; It is He who has made us, and not we ourselves; We are His people and the sheep of His pasture. Enter His gates with thanksgiving, And His courts with praise. Give thanks to Him; bless His name. For the LORD is good; His lovingkindness is everlasting, And His faithfulness to all generations.