I'm a dreamer. Literally. I dream very vividly. Sometimes there are nightmares but most often just puzzling events that stay with me much of the day. I had such a dream last night.
In this dream I was back in my twenties, unmarried and no kids, but there was Grace. Everywhere I went I was trying to bring her along...make her comfortable in whatever situation we were in. How was she there? Will she always be there? What does this mean?
Recently I was having dinner with a friend and our conversation turned to marriage and the impact of kids on a marriage, the impact of an empty nest on a marriage. My friend suggested that I may never truly have an empty nest...Grace may always be living with us.
Now while I'll admit that has crossed my mind, I have always imagined that Grace will go to college, live on her own, get married and have her own kids one day. We (Grace and I) even talk about that for her future. I know none of this will be easy and I think of all that would have to happen for her to "go away" to college but I think of it as a possibility...a probability.
I may be in denial, because I can go there, but I am hopeful. I have dreams.
For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. II Timothy 1:7
