My kids are now 5 years old. My 5 year old daughter was diagnosed with cerebral palsy at about 18 months of age...3 1/2 years ago. In those 3 1/2 years there have been tears but more than that, there has been a focus to help my daughter any way I could. Therefore, the drive outweighed, and more times than not. overcame the tears and weariness. I felt and appeared strong. I was focused. I was capable. I was ready for anything.
What has happened over the past month...........
The tears come more readily and I often have to fight them off in public.
It takes me longer to make phone calls to find specialists, therapists, doctors, etc.
I don't all friends back.
I don't want to help with sit-ups and bridges...her many exercises.
I don't feel strong. I just feel tired. I feel weary. I don't want to smile through it all. I want to scream "my daughter has a disability and I don't know what to do anymore."
What is going to happen?
It will all come back...the drive, the focus, the answers. I know...I hope. But for now...I'll just get by and ask my Father for a lot of help.